Thursday, July 19, 2012
A Matter of Trust.
I'm still running. Some days my miles are easier than others. Some days I just want to quit. I had a day like that two weeks ago. I just felt like I couldn't move. I was struggling to breathe, struggling to move faster, and walking more than running.
I was on the trail and I just stopped. Hot, sweaty, and upset, I felt like crying.
I often talk to myself when I run. This day I posed a question to the universe. I asked, "What do I need to do?" Implied in the question was "What do I need to do to feel better, to get faster, to feel joyful?"
I swear the universe answered. Somehow I heard, "You just need to run." Huh.
So I did. I sucked it up, reset my watch and began again. I ran the rest of my route without stopping.
Since that day, I've ditched the watch and stopped focusing on my pace. I've been trying to just run. I figure the universe must know what she's talking about.
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Have you read Born to Run? Reading that book was when it first occurred to me that running was supposed to be fun. It seems obvious now, but for a long time I thought of it as necessary torture. It also helps me to run with friends. Much less torturous, and I am hardly ever worried about pace with them because I have too much fun talking.
ReplyDeleteGetting rid of the watch was a great idea too!
Sorry for the delaved response. I just saw the comment. I did read it and loved it. When training for my first marathon a friend gave it to me as encouragement. It worked. Although what actually got me running was reading Matt Long's story in an old Runner's World magazine. I figured that if running meant so much to him with everything else that he'd dealt with, there must be something to it.
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